RIZA PART 2

I also want to be honest about one thing:

I was never really a provider for her.

And I knew that was one of her biggest red flags.

Not because she was materialistic — far from it.

It was because of what her ex-husband did to her.

He manipulated her into giving and giving until there was almost nothing left.

And when I say giving, all taken from her through years of manipulation.

That kind of betrayal changes how a person sees love.

It makes them terrified of being used again.

And I knew that.

That’s why it became one of our biggest arguments.

Because despite everything, she still thought highly of me.

Even if I only came from a call center background, she believed I had the potential to do bigger things.

She saw something in me that, honestly, I was still struggling to see in myself.

She kept telling me I was capable of more.

She even offered to help me shift careers and join her in the VA world because she believed I could build something better for myself there.

And maybe that’s what made it hurt more.

She believed in me so much…

while I was still trying to figure out how to believe in myself. 

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